there is a pit inside of me

There is a pit inside of me

That swallows me whole

A hole that never fills up 

And never grows old

There’s a darkness inside of me 

That I can not control

It sucks the light out of rooms

And out of my soul.

There’s a feeling inside of me

That I can’t let go.

It feeds off me like a parasite

And it has made me it’s home

There use to be a spark inside of me

That made myself glow

It gave me hope

And it made me feel whole

I look for that lost spark inside of me.

But it’s too dark to see.

I wander aimlessly

Looking for a single flicker

To remind myself 

Who I used to be